Being stalked by an online cyber bully

I've recently been stalked by an online cyber bully, I'm not quite sure what to do with it.  She found my post of a youtube video of my child singing "meep meep" in a video.  She used hate speech against my child that would make any KKK or Neo-Nazi blush, I was in shock.  She mentioned things like I was a breeder and that my "crotch-dropping" was destroying the planet.  I asked her to please leave me alone and I removed my videos and moved to a new channel that I thought would be safe.  She found me again and started up with the hate language about my child.  At this point I'm not going to move so I just asked her to stop bothering me, blocked her and reported her to youtube for cyber bullying.  All I know about this woman is that she's an RN in Asheville, North Carolina and she wants all children "removed" and every human sterilized without their permission.  If she feels this way, I hope she's not in charge of elderly, children or terminal patients.

I have a dear friend who is childfree and I fear that people like this woman give childfree a bad reputation.  I think she uses her status to perpetuate hate and sadly it's not the first time this happened to me.

The first incident was when I was walking with my older son in a store, he was holding my hand minding his own business when  woman took her shopping cart and tried to hit him on purpose.  She gave an evil smirk and went her on her way.  The second incident we were almost attacked was when I was in line holding my older son while he slept.  I was taking my in-laws on an Alaskan cruise for a gift and we were waiting in line to board the ship.  A woman and her husband started yelling at us that if our child ever got near us that they would hut him and us, I was in shock.  My family surrounded me to protect us and we did our best to make sure they got no where near us.  By the end of the cruise they apologized, saying they had never seen such a well behaved child.  I don't care though, someone threatens someone I love and I will protect with all that I have.

Because of these reasons I've always kept two boys close to me and we keep to our small town and people that we know.  My older son has traveled with me to Japan, Hawaii, Alaska and all across the US.  He's a 20 year old in a 8 year old body, that's just his soul.  My 2 year old is athletic and full of life and is a child in every sense.  The difference is that my 8 year old spent his first 5 years of his life watching his father emotionally abuse me and in many ways his father emotionally abused him as well.  The fear for both of us to melt into the background in order to not be noticed was so strong, it's hard to describe how it's in every fiber of your being.  

I've started a new life and my husband and I have a 2 year old wonder.  My husband is also full of life and is not afraid to show it.  He's loud, happy and beautiful and so is our son.    When I read about people threatening child or talking poorly of them because they are loud my mind goes back to my ex and the abuse we suffered.  I see him as these people who hate children and what it means to be child-like.  When this cyber-bully stalked and used words to attack us I was brought back to the emotional abuse I suffered for 13 years.  I realize though that there are people out there who have nothing in their soul but hate and loathing.  

I think the new glass ceiling of society for women is other women and how vicious they can be to bring down others.  Why would another woman use hate words such as "breeder" and so on?  Never have I even thought twice about my childfree friends having children, I've always loved and supported them because this aspect of humanity is such a personal and private choice.  Yes I know there are others who given grief to this community but is that still a good reason to use hate towards strangers?  What happened to love?

This is why I stay local to my very small town, I know the people who are safe for my children to be around.  We find adventures outdoors and we avoid many of the large public areas.  Too many times I've gotten dirty looks as I hold my baby quietly in my arms when I'm in Costco.  Too many times I've seen people speed up when my children and I are on a crosswalk.  I know I'm paranoid tonight, I know I cannot protect my children from everything but I will stay local.  My soul was made for small towns and small grocery stores.   I know some really good people, kind people, people with good values.

I know there are many reasons that people may hate me...

I'm a mother

I'm not religious but I'm spiritual

I'm a heathen

I respect life from beginning until the end

My Momma is a lesbian

I believe in gay marriage

I have no patience for racism

I disrespect academic elitist even though I'm getting my MA

I disrespect social elitist

I got my degree in math from a university where a mascot was a banana slug (trust me, this has gotten grief)

I'm emotionally driven

I'm Irish-Scottish-French

I was raised Catholic but I fell away from the religion

I think reproduction is personal and private

I think if a person who hurts a child should be punished to the max of the law (although I would desire for more than that)

I'm hoping by just getting this out that I can get over it.  Usually I don't let people get to me but when my children are concerned  I feel beyond protective.

Why do we need the hate?  Why not find love and understanding?  Ignorance leads to fear and fear leads to hate.

We need peace, I need peace.... 

Keep the ones you love close.